Panic

Things happened so fast the last few days that I hardly had time to think. Mum was admitted into the hospital again two days ago after suffering from hypothermia. Her lips, fingers and toes turned bluish and she was shivering uncontrollably.

I have not seen Mum in such agony before. She was crying. I panicked and just broke down. I very much wanted to do something to alleviate her suffering but there was nothing I could do. I have never felt so helpless before, not even after I was paralysed. That was because Mum was always there to assure me that everything possible was done to help me recover.

I do not know how I could have coped if Wuan was not here. She kept her cool consoling Mum while keeping her warm. I had to call Mr. Tan back from work to accompany Mum in the ambulance and manage her admission at the hospital.

Mum is much better now after being given two units of blood. While she is at the hospital, Wuan is cleaning up the apartment to make it airier and make sleeping space for the maid that we engaged to look after Mum temporarily. It is a relief to see Mum’s condition improving.

Author: Peter Tan

Peter Gabriel Tan. Penangite residing in the Klang Valley. Blissfully married to Wuan. A LaSallian through and through. Slave to three cats. Wheelchair user since 1984. End-stage renal disease since 2017. Principal Facilitator at Peter Tan Training specialising in Disability Equality Training. Former columnist of Breaking Barriers with The Borneo Post. This blog chronicles my life, thoughts and opinions. Connect with me on Twitter and Facebook.