There is a list of outstanding things that I should have blogged about but have not. Top in the list is my trip to Kota Kinabalu, especially the Bloggers Meet at Shamrock Irish Pub, which was three weeks ago. After procrastinating for so many weeks, I decided that today would be the day. There were so many wonderful memories that I would like to blog about.
If I were to run a marathon like I blog, I would not only finish the race last but…
I had to stop mid-sentence to scratch an itchy neck. As I continued to scratch, the itch spread down to my back and shoulders. The urgency to blog dissipated. Long after the itch subsided leaving my skin tender and smarting, I began to wallow in self-pity at the condition of my failing kidneys which is the cause of the itch.
This itchiness has been plaguing me even before I went to Seoul in September. At first, I thought it was just an allergy. The situation exacerbated in the last two weeks as my shoulder, back, neck and chest were afflicted as well. Besides that, unexplained bruises appeared on and off on my left chest and right arm. These are some of the symptoms of chronic renal failure.
Is the health of my kidneys deteriorating? This is the answer only a blood test will reveal. Am I worried? Yes, but this not something that I am not expecting. I would be lying if I said this is not affecting me emotionally. I was depressed. I am depressed. Now that I am done with feeling miserable, I am going to go on living. Life has to go on come what may. Excuse me while I scratch my itch again.