Archive for the 'Matters Of The Heart' Category
I Am Stupid
Tuesday, March 30th, 2010It is true when they say: If you don’t use it, you’ll lose it. What they did not add is that it will atrophy first. I have not done a lot of critical thinking lately. I have been taking it easy for a while now. My reactions are slow. I cannot hold a decent conversation with Wuan. I get easily distracted. My attention span is short, to say the least. The heat wave was a major factor. It makes me lethargic. Insomnia is the other. I am not exaggerating when I say I feel stupid of late, not that I was any smarter before this. The dearth of updates in this blog is proof of it. Woe is me.
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Hei Sun Or Liu
Thursday, March 25th, 2010My sleeping hours have been out of sync lately. I get up just before Wuan goes to work, woken up by a full bladder. After I empty it, I cannot get back to sleep most of the time. I stay up and drift senselessly from one task to another, completing none. Sleep deprivation makes me moody. It disrupts my train of thought, Nothing is coherent. That heat and humidity exacerbate it, that is, until it rains cats and dogs in the evenings, like just now. I read in Twitter there was a hailstorm somewhere in Kuala Lumpur. That would have been exciting. No such luck where I am staying. Bummer. The air is cool now. I am getting back some of my sanity, obviously not enough to prevent me from blabbering here. Woe is me.
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When Did Mid-Life Pass Me By?
Wednesday, March 10th, 2010I am in my forties. That realisation just hit me although I am four years into it already. I have never dreamt of this day, dreamt of living to this age. Forty was so far in the future when I was in my teenage years. Forty still seemed far away when I was in my twenties. I never thought about it when I was in the thirties. Now here I am!
Where have all the years gone to, three decades of them? It felt like such a short while ago when I was a teenager living life dangerously. Mid-life has whizzed past without me noticing. Despite determining to do it, I did not live life fully in the twenties and thirties. I feel that if I do not live life fully now, I may never know what it really is like. Most of all, I owe it to Wuan to make our lives together meaningful.
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