Taming My Cravings

Pent-up cravings are dangerous. They make me eat more than I should in moments of weakness, break my low-protein diet and cause me to worry no end if I had caused my kidneys more damage. Most of those cravings are for meat dishes, if not meat then food high in purine and those that make me itch.

After 6 years of attempting to carefully watch my diet, I still succumb to such temptations every now and then, especially when Wuan and I make trips to Ipoh and Penang. There are simply too much good food in these two places to ignore. It is in Ipoh that I usually throw caution to the wind; invariably, at Restoran Wong Koh Kee, where the food is simply too delicious to resist.

Thankfully, it is not that often we travel up north to these two food paradises. Thankfully, too, Wuan keeps a close watch on what I put into my mouth. The look in her eyes when I am about to binge is enough to tame my cravings, however great they may be. She also keeps my diet in check by ensuring that my lunch on most weekdays are healthy and balanced.

Life is less flavourful when I need to watch what I eat all the time. I console myself with the fact that there are more interesting things to life than just delicious food. There are still sights to see, sounds to hear and sensations to feel. Being able to fully enjoy three out of those four is not that bad. Most importantly, I am alive. That desire to be alive longer so that I can spend more time with Wuan is the best deterrent to not succumb to my cravings.

Author: Peter Tan

Peter Gabriel Tan. Penangite residing in the Klang Valley. Blissfully married to Wuan. A LaSallian through and through. Slave to three cats. Wheelchair user since 1984. End-stage renal disease since 2017. Principal Facilitator at Peter Tan Training specialising in Disability Equality Training. Former columnist of Breaking Barriers with The Borneo Post. This blog chronicles my life, thoughts and opinions. Connect with me on Twitter and Facebook.