Anxiety attacks when I need it least. I am fidgety, restless and unsettled. No matter how much I tell myself that I have been doing the right things the past few months this nagging feeling refuses to go away. It has latched on to me like a leech feasting on my jugular. The results this afternoon will determine how I subsist for the next few months. I am looking forward to it but at the same time not. This is really disconcerting.

Author: Peter Tan

Peter Gabriel Tan. Penangite residing in the Klang Valley. Blissfully married to Wuan. A LaSallian through and through. Slave to three cats. Wheelchair user since 1984. End-stage renal disease since 2017. Principal Facilitator at Peter Tan Training specialising in Disability Equality Training. Former columnist of Breaking Barriers with The Borneo Post. This blog chronicles my life, thoughts and opinions. Connect with me on Twitter and Facebook.

8 thoughts on “Panicky”

  1. it’ll be right peter. not to worry. He has His hands on everything and He’s protecting you right now. God bless. I’ll pray for you too.

  2. why did you categorise this under “chronic kidney failure”? get well soon, k *hugs* i think what you’ve been doing is great. a lil anxiety is normal since you’ve got so much in hand. dont worry!

  3. adriene,
    Sometimes my faith is not that strong. I need to find peace again in Him again. Thank you.

    That was a scheduled check up for my kidneys.

    Stress I can take… but this…

    Because it is about my kidneys mah. Will blog about it soon. Thanks. Hugs.

  4. yeah, what bkworm said is good. be still…. He has it all in His hands.

    take care,

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